A new year

Do you ever wonder where life is taking you? It's hard sometimes to know what the right decisions to make are. When things get complicated, there is so much noise in your head you don't even know which thought are yours and which are a product of your environment.
It's not that I am not happy in my life because I'm happier now than I have ever been. I'm at a point where I see myself constantly learning and growing and most of the time that feels great. It's those few moments when I look back at what my life has been, that I get confused. I don't feel like the same person I use to be. I am focused, responsible (as I can be), practical and as much as I don't like to admit it, a conformist.
As a child I was always an outcast. My friends were few and far between. I tended to hang out with people who were looking for trouble or maybe just attention. It was a life that I am glad I got to experience because it made me a more aware person. I know that I am better for having lived the way I did. I was always looking for excitement, adventure and mostly just something to do. My only source of discontent is a question posed by Adam Sandler. Would the sixth grade version of me kick my ass if she met me on the street?
Not the most poignant way to put it, but the idea still bothers me.
Most of my days are the same. I get up early, go to school, go to work and spend my evenings at home. And while most people my age are still out looking for that adventure and excitement, I feel like I have already had mine. Nevertheless, I answer Adam's question with a resounding no. I am proud of the person I have become, even if life sometimes feels a little monotonous. I will take monotony and security over uncertainty about tomorrow any day.
I don't know where life is taking me, and while I am enjoying my time in school and living on my own, I sincerely hope that there is much more adventure and excitement on the horizon for me. It is nice to have a sense of security but everyone needs a little adventure to remind themselves they are still alive.